When I Eclipse Myself : Choosing to Spiral UP When Triggers Hit A Practical Mind Guide 🌑✨
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Eclipsing Myself: Fighting to Spiral UP When Triggers Hit 🌑➡️🌟
Some days the trigger hits and it feels like the old version of me is dragging me straight back into the dark.
Heart racing. Thoughts spiraling. That heavy ache reminding me of every hurt, every time I was dismissed or broken. In those moments it’s so easy to just let myself fall — to replay the pain, blame myself, and stay stuck in the old story.
But I’m learning I can eclipse myself.
I can let the version of me who is healing step in and overshadow the old patterns. It’s not magic or instant. It’s a decision I make right then, even when I don’t feel like it. A conscious fight to spiral UP instead of down.
Noticing the Difference
Spiraling down is automatic. It feels safe because it’s familiar — my mind loops, my body tightens, and I’m suddenly back in the past.
Spiraling UP is a choice. It feels awkward and effortful at first, but it’s where my real power lives.
When I catch myself in the spiral, here’s what I do:
- I pause and name it: “This is a trigger. I’m spiraling.” That alone creates a tiny gap.
- I check in honestly: “Am I sliding down or am I willing to fight my way up?”
- Then I take action — real self-love practices, not just fluffy thoughts:
- Deep breathing while I put my hand on my chest and remind myself “I am safe now. That was then.”
- Ringing someone just to check in - grounding the positive energy they have over my heart.
- Moving my body during a trigger or nightmare — even if it’s just pacing or stepping outside for fresh air.
- Turning to growth: picking up my paints and letting the emotion come out on the canvas. It’s not about making something pretty, it’s about creativity and giving the feelings somewhere to go.
- Playing a gentle song to feel whole in a fractured moment. Choose companionship, Spiraling down feels like isolating - REBEL against that comfort of isolation... Connect with nature with music, Artists love the fact music has healing energy (powers) and its actually a main reason people create music its quite a act of strength to put some music on when spiraling down. / If a song doesn't come to mind for me I find a nice talk back station is a adorable way to just be in a frequency of positive energy, listening to conversation about canned food was a funny awesome night I had recently on my local talk back station, funny light hearted and real. Thought provoking conversation that makes you want to call in and share a thought or request a song. Just don't switch off no matter what. Never let the spiral win! Spiral UP! FIGHT!!!
Every time I choose these things in the middle of the trigger, I’m entirely eclipsing the old me. I’m building new habits. It doesn’t erase the pain overnight, but it DRAMATICALLY changes how I respond, how I notice, how I choose to throw light on a dark situation or memory.
This fight isn’t glamorous, the memory's are healing wounds which need gentle healing, but know healing isn't overnight, its a choice I make to let the light in. Some days I win, some days I can barely hold on. But I keep choosing to try. The future you will remember your positive choices no longer as choices but a living breathing automatic shield to who you are.
Practice Makes Perfect as cliche as that sounds.. Here we are and in a perfect world we suffered nothing. We endured thru zero storms... But this is life, Nature teaches us lessons thru seasons and weather, Be true to yourself and protect yourself fiercely desperately.
Know what your emotional parachute is and DEPLOY!
If you’re in it right now — I see you.
Take one small step.
Breathe.
Move.
Speak kindly to yourself.
That’s how we eclipse the old memories and leave them in the Graveyard of our past and spiral UP!!!
Living With Wounds as a Canvas, Not a Battlefield
My wounds are no longer a battlefield where I return to fight the same old wars.
They are my canvas.
Scars that once bled with confusion, disappointment, anger and grief now hold space for life, nature, color, for story, for new dreams. For earned blessings. Every mark left behind has a small silver lining of hope — not hidden, not ignored, but gently held and painted over with intention!
Where there was once only pain, I now choose to layer beauty. Soft pinks of self-compassion. Bold golds of growth. Deep blues of quiet strength. The wounds are still there, but they no longer define my light, my dreams or MY vision! They just help frame the art I am. The storys I will share with my kids kids! Always 100 steps ahead! :p
This is healing: learning to pick up the brush instead of the sword.
Singing instead of Screaming
A BOLD Try me Instead of Why me
The ultimate life hack! I wish I Knew sooner, so I had to share.
You’ve got this if this resonates. Together we got this lovely reader
One triggered moment at a time. One light choice at a time! 🌷
Now go chase your wild dreams, with scars and songs! I pray you rise again thru any storm ♥
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Over&Out (till next time)